burnt deep into my brain

music just sounds better 

when the person who wrote the song 

is the one who's singing it.

99.999999999% of the time

your head is aching, i'll make it better...

you know how sometimes, 

you'll listen to a song (or an artist)

so often, or so many times through,

that you sing along quietly to yourself without even realizing it.

then that same song will become ridiculously popular,

and so it's played about a billion times,

on top of the countless times you've already heard it;

in your car, your room, on your ipod, wherever...

so you take a break from it,

and then one day, without meaning to,

you'll hear it again,

and realize that over all that time,

and all those plays,

you've forgotten how amazing it was,

and why you loved it so much in the first place.

that happened to me today,

for the first time in a long time;

and i forgot how much i love this feeling.

cause i love you more than i could ever promise,

and you take me the way i am.

i want loads of clothes,

i may have a small major problem.

seriously.

the future looks bright

maybe i'll blog everyday for the rest of march,.

not always with something amazing or profound,

but always something,

that way this time in my life isn't lost,

and i'll have some kind of record of what my life was like,

at the beginning of my time with forever 21;

because this has the potential to change my life,

it's why i haven't been posting,

or making videos, 

i need to put the whole of my concentration into this right now.

unfortunately that means i don't have a few hours to make a video that i'm proud of, and if i can't do that, then i refuse to do it halfway.

tomorrow i think i'll share with you "the saddest song in the world".

pee to the ess

i JUST got home from work.

i told you, this is kind of my life right now.

sorry, in advance

this shit is bananas... B.A.N.A.N.A.S.

THIS BAG!!!!!

p.s.

i start my training a forever21 later this week!

and yes, it is a men's  bag!

i ALMOST pooped when i saw it.