we left home, and never looked behind

i am:

afraid,

fearful,

scared,

and terror-stricken.

i am terrified.

i am:

shaking,

flailing,

sinking,

and gasping for breath.

i am drowning.

i am:

broken,

damaged,

fragmented,

malfunctioning,

and cracked.

i am not okay.

the tv's still on

if i were dying;

and my mother found out.

i would have to comfort her.

i love them with all my heart, 

with everything i have inside of me;

but my parents had no business being parents.

if you've seen no good at saying sorry then you know,

this is why grey's anatomy means so much to me.