question, tell me what you think about this

what happens when i find him?

the guy who's sweet and thoughtful,

with his dark hair and light in his eyes.

then what happens if he loves me back?

we love all the same songs,

and hate things in the same ways.

then what happens if he decides i'm not enough,

we're not enough,

or worse, what if something horrible happens to him?

what do i do then?

who am i afterwards?

how do i get better, once i've had the best?

and finally,

is it crazy to miss a place that you've never been?

because i do;

it's all i can think about,

and some days, it's the only thing that keeps me sane.

i am a weapon of massive consumption...

but it's not my fault it's how i'm programmed to function.

okay so, 

i'm only halfway through 

and i'm sure i've eaten at LEAST 

three times as many sprinkles and white chocolate chips 

as i have vanilla fro-yo.

i have a serious problem. 

p.s.

i got my final paycheck from banana republic in the mail yesterday and i'm going to BUUUUUY SHIIIIIT!!!

(i started with pre-ordering the new lily allen album)

that is all.

training continues tomorrow,

i'm unleashing my slim jeans on the world.

i'm pretty sure it'll be fantastic.

we're supposed to accessorize,

and skinny jeans with boots are as far as i'm willing to go.

the new store will open some time in the near nondescript future

(because i signed a confidentiality agreement.)

i could be more excited but then i'd loose control of my bowels.

i'll leave you with happy mental image and update tomorrow. 

here's hoping it rains tomorrow.

this shit is bananas... B.A.N.A.N.A.S.

THIS BAG!!!!!

p.s.

i start my training a forever21 later this week!

and yes, it is a men's  bag!

i ALMOST pooped when i saw it.