be careful with your heart

so this youtube sitch... 

(thank you kim possible)

i'm trying to work it out,

when i do they'll be two new videos up,

both of questionable quality,

but that's nothing new.

in other news

because until recently 

i never considered that people reading this 

wouldn't automatically watch the videos 

and thus don't give two shits about how many i'll be uploading

when i was making more icons for the blog,

i started thinking about the things i want to display,

and i thought how i only want things that really matter,

then it brought me back to why i started this in the first place,

it was for me,

because i needed something,

someplace to write all of the things i think.

so for the most part this will be the last post that regularly mentions videos separately,

from now on it's only how they affect me.

that being said, 

i'm going to be writing more personal things,

they won't always be funny,

they won't always make you feel better when you've finished reading them,

but they will be completely honest.

for the first time in my life,

i need to something for myself,

with out worrying about what other people will think.

that's why i started this,

so that's how i'm going to keep it going.

the videos are going to stay the same,

because i'm not a big heap of emotion all the time,

but when i am i have to know that i have someplace to put my thoughts.

they say that the internet is a horrible place to meet people,

because you only see what they want you to see,

that was true for me.

until now.