then we ate some orange tic-tacs after

my first non-official-but-still-getting-paid-for-it day was a non-tragedy

when they brought up the dress code and how we can't wear denim,

it was a little awkward because i was wearing banana republic jeans

excuse me, banana republic denim dress trousers

but apparently no matter how fancily you name them, you can't wear them to work

i'd be upset if they weren't the most fantastic pair of denim dress trousers i'd ever tried on.

i haven't said anything about it yet, 

but i might be going back to victorville

that's not true, 

i am for sure going back to victorville, 

but i'm not sure when

i know that i want to go back to be with my parents,

especially now that my dad's having all this weirdness with his diabetes.

and it also wouldn't hurt to be able to save up bunches of money in the process.

but i know that i can't stay for too long.

1) because i think living rent free for too long would ruin me

2) and because i can't watch then completely deteriorate

and i know that's gross and selfish, but it's the truth

i want to make some meaningful memories with them,

before i get too old and living at home is just sad, ha.

and that way i'll have good memories, when i think about living with them.

the whole situation was weird my senior year, 

i just wanted to get out, 

and they just wanted to spend all their time with me.

it wasn't exactly an evenly matched situation,

but if i go home to help out and all that jazz, 

then i'll be ale to enjoy time with them, 

and after a while i can come back.

this is made tricky by the fact i haven't had an official shift with banana republic yet,

and david already requested time off from forever 21 corporate for july.

so we'll see how things work out,

but i couldn't keep updating this thing without saying that.

every time i put up a new post i'd have to figure out a way to avoid the subject.

and then sitting here i realized that i started this whole thing so that i could be honest.

so i'm saying it now, and i'll update my departure plans in later posts.