aparently not all my subscribers feel the same way about me as i do about them...
i lost two followers on twitter,
AND a subscriber!
(more complete details in my next video.)
it's not even the followers,
because whatever,
but honestly the subscriber bothers me,
don't ask me why,
but even though i started making videos for myself,
once i people started to care i started making videos for both of us.
which is why i went on such a major guilt trip when i took youtube hiatus
(eight days.... it may not seem like a long time future me)
(but at this point in time it's the longest you've gone with out new material.)
and that's why i posted three videos in three days,
one of them being a subscriber thank you,
i made these ridiculously elaborate plans for when i hit 50,
(i am not now, nor was i ever expecting this to be soon)
(but when i say ridiculously elaborate, i mean it)
and i had finished it for 22 so far...
so then i'm talking to natalie and caitlin,
(note: when there are spaces i've talked to them separately)
and i go to check mah youtube for the first time today,
(i've been painting a LOT so i haven't been so obsessive)
now, when i went to bed this morning i had 32.
i check tonight and all of a sudden i've got 31?!?
i'm upset,
probably more than i should be but whatever.
and i DON'T play favorites with my subscribers,
but this one in particular
i compared my subscription emails with my subscriber list
is one whose videos i watch, and love.
and i'd be lying if i said that i don't love the idea that people i love on youtube, might totally love me back.
what i don't understand,
is that this particular person went to 888,
and i from twitter i know the would have just been getting home,
when the unsubscription(?) would have happened.
now i seem creepy
why now?
why even subscribe in the first place?
it's not like the videos are getting WORSE
they really could only get better.
so that totally ruined my day.
i'll get over it i'm sure.
it is what it is i guess...
1 comment:
as someone who doesn't post, (i am just not a vlogger at heart, blogging suits me way better), i am trying to imagine how i would feel about the situation you've just described. all i keep coming up with is that i would want to know "why." but, on the other hand, there are people out there who will be supportive and friendly - those who really appreciate your efforts. probably best to focus on them, and not let this setback get in the way of something you enjoy doing. hope you feel better!
~soup (a.k.a. Della)
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